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Daily Archives: July 5, 2017

Off the Charts Anxiety

I’m about ready to lose my shit. I mean it! Little dude starts his extended school year session tomorrow, which is fine. I’ve come to LOVE these 5 weeks and consider them mandatory in order to maintain some level of sanity in our home because it gets little dude out of the house for 4+ hours a day and gives me, and his siblings, a bit of a break for those 4+ hours. But this year is different. This year he’ll be attending his extended school year session over at the middle school instead of the designated elementary school he’s been going to since 2010. That’s fine. In fact, I expected it. The middle school is closer to the house and I could even walk him there if I chose to. But, since he’s special needs he is entitled to take the bus, and I’ve decided to be like almost everyone else and start to take advantage of these entitlements just a little bit. However, what I wasn’t expecting was to have to walk him over to his bus stop. I wasn’t even expecting him to have a bus stop. I really thought it was going to be exactly how its been since September 2009, when he started preschool. The bus has always stopped at our front door. Now, that’s over. Well shit. I wasn’t expecting that, so I wasn’t really ready for it. Unexpected, but not the end of the world – still though it managed to raise my anxiety level up just a skooch because now we have to get up earlier and now walk to the bus stop. If we’re running…

Things I Wish I Knew Before My Cat Died

So hard to believe that I said goodbye to my furry little soul sister, CiCi, a year ago. Gotta admit, it went by fast. Well, fast since the beginning of this year – the first 6 months were hell. Even though I’m much better emotionally than I was 365 days ago not a day goes by where she doesn’t cross my mind in some way. So CiCi’s story began almost 2 years ago in July of 2015 when she suddenly went from a happy and frisky kitty to a sullen little thing who dragged herself from one room to the next. Of course this happened on a Sunday and by the time I realized, shit! She needs medical attention ASAP! even the emergency vet for our area (an hour away in Red Bank) was closed. I rushed her into our vet the following morning where they weren’t sure if she had swollen intestines or cancer. What they did know was that she needed a $2000 exploratory surgery. And so wanting her to survive and all, I left her there in the vet’s care. When I called the next day to check on her and find out what’s going on, they still had no answers. They had performed an exploratory laparotomy with biopsies on her and they wouldn’t have the results back in until the following week. I picked her up 2 days later, happy to see her, relieved she was still alive and coming home but frustrated because we still had no answers – you know, like it was all the same from say $2000 ago. When the results came back they weren’t good. They weren’t as bad as they thought…